Finding My “Why”…

I’ve started a stopped a number of things quite a few times over the last few years.

Take this blog for example.

I started it many years ago, tried to build followers and when it got hard, I abandoned it.  Why?

Was my heart not in it?

Was I forcing it?

None of the above.

It wasn’t until recently that I was encouraged to dissect my many undone intentions and, after a long conversation with a business partner, I was left with this.

I haven’t yet fully found and accepted my why.

This is important.

I’m trying to build something meaningful here…something meant to impact the lives of many.  But I can’t impact if I can’t inspire and I can’t inspire if I don’t know why I want to inspire.

Who do I want to inspire?

What do I want them to inspire them to do?

The answer all lies with finding my “why.”

So at the suggestion of my business partner, I ran out yesterday and picked up this book.  I’m sure I’m probably the last human to not have read this from cover to cover. (**cue laugh**) 

I deliberately purchased the book.  I wanted to feel the pages in my hand.  I wanted my eyes to move across the words as my mind takes them in. Reading is intentional while listening (for me) can be distracted.  I don’t want to miss a morsel of this book.

Stay tuned as I share my thoughts on each chapter as I read and digest them.  I have a long flight coming up on Sunday so that seems like the perfect opportunity to dive in, finish and finally come to terms with my why. 


Life Gave Me Lemons, So I Made Apple Pie


I love the perspective of the saying “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”  It helps me remember to look at each and every situation with the intent of finding the positive.  That’s a great start.  But that is not where it ends for me.  I have to take it a step further.I have had a lot of challenges in my life.

Let’s start with having a baby at age 19.  Add marriage at age 20.  Then came baby number 2 at age 21.  Then I moved 1700 miles away from home to live in Wyoming while my husband was in the U.S. Air Force.  Add to that going to college at night and taking care of 2 small children with a deployed husband. Then I was faced with cancer at age 29. Finally, I continued my education well into my 30’s while being a wife, mother and full-time employee.

Sounds like a lot, right?  Yet, I am still here…stronger and more determined than ever.  Why?  Because rather than turning those lemons (challenges) into lemonade, I let them stay lemons. I am reminded of my grandmother who often made apple pie.  She always added a little lemon juice to her apples to keep them from turning brown just before she tossed them in brown sugar and butter.  She didn’t first transform the lemons into lemonade and then add them to the apples.  She took the raw, sour lemon juice realizing that in its purest form it would do the trick.  The same holds true for my life. All of those lemons  mentioned before did just the trick as is and helped me grow and develop into the person I am today.  I often reflect on those lemons because they make every bite of my “apple pie” more enjoyable and more meaningful.

So I ask you, when life gives you lemons, what do you do?  Do you make lemonade or do you make apple pie?